leaving

The twanging of life
First part : leaving

I have learned that if you must leave a person that you have loved and got ride from everything just for him or her and where all your yesteryears and memories are buried deep, leave directly any way except a slow way, leave him or her the fastest way you can and never turn back, never believe that the hour you remember is the best hour because it is dead, you have got to understand that, passed years seem safe ones, vanquished ones, while the future lives in a cloud, formidable from a distance.

Yes sometimes when we leave something of ourselves behind when the person who we love, leaves us or we leave him or her, we stay there even though we go away and there are things in us that we can find again only by going back there but in fact love is not circled around that person, love is where you go when you run out of love, love is people and of course not a single one person, If you go back there after people who around you are gone, then all you can see is, what is not there any more .. you must know that the end of your relationship isn’t what you had with that person or what that person gave you and even what you aimed, and now it seems like you are going to lose all those things, maybe the end of your relationship is the beginning of a light, the shinning light of your sun which somewhere you are going to and never have been before.

Don't forget that, all feelings are sanctuaries so whoever knows how to speak to all of them and whoever knows how to listen to all of them, not just those feelings which always capture you to the direction of that person, can learn the truth, I mean the truth of life .. all feelings don't preach learning and precepts but actually they preach undeterred by particulars and what the life is, so the life never needs a person who has been been weak by some feelings like missing someone or loving someone who doesn't care, not only this but also there is a longing to wander tears my heart when I hear some people are saying that "you love only one and love is only for one and the first love can't be forgotten" so If one listens to them silently for a long time, those impolitic words reveal its kernel, its inessential meaning and then the result is going to be catastrophic, it is not so much a matter of being sincere for someone but it is a matter of getting ride from one's suffering though it may seem to be so and it is a longing for being free, for getting ride from the memory of the hallucination, for new metaphors for life .. you have to understand that, the end of your relationship leads to home and every path leads homeward, every step is birth and every step is death and then every grave with a person who cares is love.

If you don't decide to leave, something inside you would be lost forever, something you can't afford to lose, it is like a vague dream, a burning and unfulfilled desire, every time we make the decision to love someone, we open ourselves to great suffering, because those we most love sometimes cause us only great pain so the greatest pain comes from them not from leaving.